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Ithaca
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Waiting is agony, the unknown is even worse.
I sit and wait to find the answer to my question:
Am I good enough?
If I'm not, what do I do?
This feeling is taking over my mind,
and it gets worse with each passing day; until I find my answer.
When something you want more than anything is just within your grasp, but keeps inching away,
what do you do?
Reach farther.
Even if the answer is dependent on nothing more you can do, reach farther.
But what if that still isn't enough?
What if your best still falls short.
Why did I chose this, why couldn't I chose the safe path?
What makes me think I can survive this way.
I can still turn around, I can alter course.
I can be safe.
Yet, I turn down this opportunity each time it arises.
I shoot it down like a clay pigeon.
Everything in my head is saying no, take the opportunity and go where you belong
Everything in my heart is saying Go! Keep going!
Everything in my soul is saying you know what you have to do. You know what will make you happy.
Now, to decide which is which.
I sit and wait to find the answer to my question:
Am I good enough?
If I'm not, what do I do?
This feeling is taking over my mind,
and it gets worse with each passing day; until I find my answer.
When something you want more than anything is just within your grasp, but keeps inching away,
what do you do?
Reach farther.
Even if the answer is dependent on nothing more you can do, reach farther.
But what if that still isn't enough?
What if your best still falls short.
Why did I chose this, why couldn't I chose the safe path?
What makes me think I can survive this way.
I can still turn around, I can alter course.
I can be safe.
Yet, I turn down this opportunity each time it arises.
I shoot it down like a clay pigeon.
Everything in my head is saying no, take the opportunity and go where you belong
Everything in my heart is saying Go! Keep going!
Everything in my soul is saying you know what you have to do. You know what will make you happy.
Now, to decide which is which.
I know that this poem does a 90 degree turn about halfway through, but that's how my mind works. I called it Ithaca because Ithaca is my dream school, I want to go for musical theatre, but eveytime I think about my actual chances of getting, I usually get discouraged. I pretty much just wrote the first thing that came into my head.
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Go musical theatre!
I think you should give it a shot, it's tearing you up so much! I'm the same, i always want things that i think i can't have, but lately i've started taking chances and it's working.
Never thought i would ever be a singer, but i joined a vocal group last year, just for fun, and now i have a main role in our school musical, which is WOW considering i have next to no experience whatsoever. If your heart is in it, DO IT!!!
I know it's gnawing away at you, what if you're not good enough etc, you don't even know if it's the path for you... Well there's only one way to find out, isn't there? I mean, which is worse, failing to get into the school or spending the rest of your life thinking "what if"? Cliche line i know, but worth thinking about.
I'm all for you giving it a shot. Just try, if you don't get in the world won't end, but if you do...
Good luck!! 
I think you should give it a shot, it's tearing you up so much! I'm the same, i always want things that i think i can't have, but lately i've started taking chances and it's working.
Never thought i would ever be a singer, but i joined a vocal group last year, just for fun, and now i have a main role in our school musical, which is WOW considering i have next to no experience whatsoever. If your heart is in it, DO IT!!!
I know it's gnawing away at you, what if you're not good enough etc, you don't even know if it's the path for you... Well there's only one way to find out, isn't there? I mean, which is worse, failing to get into the school or spending the rest of your life thinking "what if"? Cliche line i know, but worth thinking about.
I'm all for you giving it a shot. Just try, if you don't get in the world won't end, but if you do...
Good luck!!